Honestly, I think we wouldn't last long. Look at you and look at me. You're perfect, you have a perfect life, perfect family, you're cute and happy, while I'm a mess, extremely problematic, angry, depressed and I have a fucked up life. I'm an ugly person. I always mess up. But your hugs and kisses makes me feel like everything's perfect for a while. It's ironic how my favorite part of myself is you but looking at you makes me hate myself. I suck. You're too good for me. I don't know if keeping you would be a good idea, even if your presence takes the pain away for a while. I mean, how can an angel like you, loves a mess like me? It seems like you're lying, that it's all a lie. It's unbelievable. It's like I'm in a dream. But I don't deserve someone so great, do I? :/
Looks like today is one of the days when I cry a lot. I cried myself to sleep while I was at your house, when you were already asleep.
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