I have this problem. I can be a whole different person at different times. I have the angelic me, whereby I can be cheerful, suffer in silence, put others before me and I will not care what others have done to me and I have the so-called evil me whereby I will hurt everybody by being selfish and doesn't think about others but myself, and all I will ever think about is revenge. It's more than that actually. And whenever I did a mistake or hurt somebody, I will only have myself to blame even though I do it unknowingly. I really don't know how and who I really am. Whenever I get asked about myself, my personality, I get stuck. I will not be able to answer properly. I have to ask somebody just so I can answer it. And when I got into an argument, at one point I will be so mad at the person that I will try to make the person look like he/she is entirely at fault and at another time, I will apologize continuously and try to take all the blame and it doesn't matter if I got hurt.
I don't know. There's something wrong with me. I don't know if I should be blame for whatever mistake I did because I do it unknowingly. If I say I didn't do it/that isn't me, then who did it? It'll all comes down to me in the end. Is it reasonable enough if I were to be blamed for everything I did? I guess it is. I don't know.
Or is this all just fantasy...
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